I should be happier today. After all, it's all the BBQ excitement tonight - the fun, the laughter and everything :)
But amidst all these, I had to have a thought. I had to click on my blog, I had to visit your profile and I had to just watch that video. Which is when the feelings had to move on with its all time mission, to make me feel miserable.
Those tears I shed, I couldn't dry. But now, I couldn't even try. It's all over to me.
I think I'm getting used to life without you around. I'm even getting used to seeing an image / smelling a scent / hearing a resonance and feeling an emotion that just reminds me of our memories all for all once in a while.
I use to cry over this, but my tears aren't magical enough to reverse the effect of what has happened. So what's the point? I hate being this way. But I can't stop.
I really wish it never had happened.
Even if I were to give up all that I have right now, for SM today wouldn't have evolved this much without you.
I'd really rather.
I am jaded no more, no more..
