today, im just your typical form 2 on a splendid yet wasted holiday :p and tomorrow, im a PMR candidate. must time work this way?! sigh. u seniors out there just breathed a sigh of relieve after collecting your results yesterday when we would start panicking about tomorrow. well, maybe not so soon but still, we are in FORM 3 already..
2009's resolution..
★ get myself a samsung F480 before Lunar New Year :D
★take more time to revive my iTunes
★ take up at least one more instrument - keyboard/flute
★start taking my violin seriously
★ come up with my very first chinese poem! (dream on)
★ quit being such a lazy bump (it's PMR!)
★ stop emo-ing
★try to not have emotional confusions (its complicated)
★get myself a black framed glasses ★stop thinking so much ★ learn to let go on "that matter" (dont ask) ★learn to appreciate ★dont care what other people's got to say
Well, 2008 is almost over and a new year is coming ahead – 2009. it felt as thought time really flew passed and I’m getting older and older just each day. Next, I would find myself sitting for PMR already when I thought I was just done with UPSR! :D
2008
An early bye bye there to you, 2008! Haha. I guess I shall just roughly sum up 2008 here..
Well, in 2008, life was like roller coaster - a year I shall never forget no matter how far I’ll travel through time. NEVER! The greatest and the worst time of my life was recorded in this remarkable year. Loads had happened, though im pretty sure more would happen in 2009!
A roller coaster eh? How? Why? Well, read on then..
I’d experienced the worst of life.. THE WORST! And I meant it. In fact, it recorded my greatest failure. Yes, I was lost. Really lost. Even I myself couldn’t myself. I cant explain exactly how it is that im ‘lost’ but let me tell you, it was terrible – that period of time. I sort of ‘flunked’ my mid term exam and apparently being the greatest actress of all time – acting as though nothing was wrong. Parents, teachers, family – all was shocked and really disappointed in me. Well, what could I do? I just cant help it.
Someone was distracting me. A LOT! I spent every morning of exam days online. Trying to know more about that someone. Well at night, I had to put a book in front of me (pretending that im studying) when my mind has traveled miles away! Yes, im not kidding you. Well, to me, im glad I didn’t flunked. But in the eyes of others, it was, “what’s wrong with Sweetmae?”. Tell me about it..
Despite that period of time, 2008 is apparently the greatest year.
I’d soar through school life, I’d sail through the strongest of friendship, and traveled through awesome musical experiences..
School
Nothing much that I could really say about school, other than it was the Jubilee year. Well, im pretty sure u Assuntarians know the happenings – which actually, in an indirect way, brightened bits of 2008’s life.
Friends
This year, I finally found unbreakable friendship. Yes! Solid strong! And I almost couldn’t believe it actually exist..
The SSD for example. U might call it insane-ness of three typical best friends. But I call it – unbelievable. First, it’s the combination wise, a malay, a Chinese and an Indian! Isnt that awesome?! Haha. I know. Self praise = no praise. Whatever! It is apparently through SSD that I realized I actually have trustable friends. I love them, I tell you! There’s nothing that u couldn’t say to them. Well unless of course when they get really bored of me for repeating the same topic of someone again and again! Haha.
But there’s someone that I really wanna thank. Yes, it’s random but I couldn’t have survived any longer without her. DHIVIAH! I couldn’t imagine life without her. How am I to survive? Without her listening to all my problems , without her telling me what to do.. without her pulling me up when im almost falling.. life would be IMPOSSIBLE! Well, you make impossibility POSIBLE! Thanks!
Poems
Haha! yesh! My darlings! I do treasure them a lot. And it is in 2008 that I find myself writing a lot more than usual. With more feelings! Haha. well yeah. I think I can write better now, don’t u? haha! lol. Um, apparently, things aren’t so fake as compared. I felt it. Deep in my soul – which also brought me to my other discovery. That is, I couldn’t write happy, joyous poems anymore. Im stuck with emo. But in a good way. Not as in the emo, emo way. I cant put them in words. That’s okay. Don’t bother. Haha.
And other..
Haha. I cant help but to add this special paragraph for this someone! Haha. and yes, it IS that someone I mention earlier. :D
This someone has got me stumbling through hell, then raise me soaring high, and once again kick me back down. Haha. yeah. It’s complicated. Though this someone doesn’t know that it’s got such huge impacts to my life.. haha. well that’s okay. As long as my existence is felt. That’s good enough. But hell yeah! It’s the best thing that’s ever happened, though I hoped it never had happen sometimes..
[ couldn’t decide if I should put a ‘he’ or a ‘she’.. so I decided on IT! ]
So..
2008 isnt that bad after all. :D to top things up, I attended the amazing concert. So im pretty happy about how things is going now, though I believe there’s more room for moving forward.. haha. (I don’t want to use ‘improve’!)
well.. Xmas has just passed. and New Year should be coming up somewhen really soon. soooooo, i guess it's time to sum things up. well, the conclusion would be up soon. so yeah..
what happened eh? at this point, i believe there's no turning back. but frankly, what actually happened? im left blurred. i dont know, and i just cant explain. i cant tell what's going on in her mind. gosh! she's so unpredictable.. one moment she's so welcoming and warm, the next, she's back to her cool and cold self again.
was it because of the text? was she mad? i really didnt mean to send it to her la. i just typed the wrong contact. i mean what do u expect, when u tell me something, i'd end up writing that. so when i say something about someone, i'll end up sending it to that someone. damn! my silly-ness..
or was it not because of the text? i dont thing i screwed anything.. am i thinking too much? was she in a bad mood? was she just busy? gah! forget it. no point asking questions, im not getting an answer anyway. :|
i dont even get why im so bothered over this. so what if she doesnt reply my IMs and my texts.. [well, she doesnt normally reply text] oh well, i dont know. i shouldnt be so bothered about this. it shouldnt affect my life. but why? i need an answer! :| it feels so odd.. just as im having the greatest time of life..
ps: once again, it's not you alright. because i cant think of any reason why 'she' would actually read my blog.
the concert! yeah! it was awesome. Far far better than i actually expected. e'one loved it, i believe. well at least my friends did. haha. we all did! weeeeeeee! though the route there was tough and i kinda got lost (: it's definitely worth the watch!
Details: A Joint Concert between PJ Youth Symphonic Band & Old Boys Old Girls Wind Symphony (S'pore) held in : Cempaka International School, Cheras on the : 20th of December at : 8.30pm
PJYSB Windows of The World i) Amazonia ii) Rainforest iii) The Rising Sun iv) Drums of Thunder (this was awesome!) v) Celtic Dream vi) Earth Walk Conducted by:Ms. Cheryl Mah
OBOGWS Dolly No.1 Berceuse * No 6 Le Pas Espagnol Gabriel Faure Leroy Anderson Portrait Takarajima Hirotaki Izumi Conducted by:Mr. Lim Yean Hwee
Joint Performances A Christmas Festival Christmas Song Christmas Recollections Conducted by : Mr. Lim Yean Hwee White Christmas Sleigh Ride Christmas Today Conducted by:Ms. Cheryl Mah Encore: Friends For Life Conducted by:Ms. Cheryl Mah
now, time for pictures!
The ticket and programme book
the programme book *cover*
the programme book *in it*
performers of the night! *but i dont think they're all here* (:
i stole this and the one above from someone's blog! *thanks*
that's apparently how the stage is like (:
PJYSB! after their first repertoire (: *drums of thunder!* :D
-new phone! (samsung F480)the existing one went in a trauma -a Mac desktop (whichever model) -a 3rd generation ipodthat's coming true -a brand new keyboardthat too is coming true :D -an ALTO!haha. how could i miss that!
that's about all that i wanted. well, most of them are coming true, coming soon! the rest i shall leave it to SANTA! or you? hahahaha..
haha! yeah babeh! daddy's approved of going for the CONCERT! woohooooooooo! hahaha. now i just cant wait. anyone, still wanna pakat!? ahahah call me, text me, whatever man! just say it if you want! cause im soooooooooo syok-ed!!
does my title give you the 'ooookaaaaay' expression?! since when is sm so chines-ified? haha. well, just to let you know, it's approximately 50 seconds ago. xDI just watched a couple of videos in youtube, something really did inspired me to actually write in chinese. * as in my poems * it's so.. so.. cool? well, i dunno. I just wished languages could be implanted into individuals. then i wouldnt need to take the trouble of learning it. especially claaaasical chinese!
well, it is sorta an absurd idea of me writting in chinese. i mean, my english work arent even perfect yet, and im attempting chinese?! That's a bit too soon.. haha
Oh well, im taking the challenge. I personally think writting poems in chinese is really really cool. so i've set my target and im so doing whatever it takes to achieve it! xP
uh-oh! the smilemaker is malfunctioning. This cant be good..
well yeah, i havent been able to even put a smile on my face, not to even mention others! I'd been so seriously down these days. and the main reason is because of you, i guess. See there! How much you actually affect my life?!!
I'd been thinking so much. Thinking of maybe you might have blocked me from your msn contacts, that i actually had to try asking someone to block me to eventually see how it is like to be blocked! I know it's dumb doing all this. I know i'm just a nobody to you. so what?! and i very well know that myself.
The only battery that fits the smilemaker is actually you! sighs..
soooo, it was prefects' party today. and we watched WILD CHILD at MV. we gathered and got into the cinema and all. thing weren't going that well when Assunta girls started their yaking ability! haha. Not to mention my seeeeat!
anyway, Wild Child was okay. i give it a mediocre. i didnt watch the trailer, neither did i read the book, so i couldnt expect much. but i sort of imagined it to be something like PROBLEM CHILD. but this wasnt as whacked! :p
it was okay overall, despite having to look up throughout the movie!
and there was a phrase that caught my attention. it goes something like :
"i had a whole in my heart for the past five years, and it is in here that i finally find it healing"
