Being happy doesnt mean that everything is perfect; it means that you've decided to look beyond the imperfections..
despite the perpetual chaos in my mind, and the vagueness of my bare sight sans fundamental sight essentials, im analytically stone blind. for i infer to quickly and hence, generating the wrong impression.
therefore, the wrong admiration. i adore someone for my wrong judgment.
how extra naive can i get?
holidays had certainly sparked a sense of belonging in life, in the days in time. a certain sentimental feeling that i couldnt whip. i tried drubbing it, but it's forceful trait prevailed over my devoid mind. and again, thoughts streamed in the way it shouldnt.
i'd always thought B was very much identical to C.
i'd lay out a countably 8 months for, what i thought, blarneys and intentional attention nabbers to snatch your attention. and out of the blue, it's like god's light shined. the whole idea was doped out in the second wink.
and through very obvious inference, without the second ponder, i thought i hit realization: i'd wasted 8 whole months. nevertheless, life proceeds.
until suddenly, i realise that you actually did redesigned the path of my life, for who you truly are, not for who i thought you were.
it's pretty plain to generally everyone, how much a syllable from you could define the point of magnitude, twisting emotion flows greatly (it's written once, sometime ago: here), and in fact, too greatly that it's almost fearful. i still, occasionally, wonder how this not-so-precisely-construed theory works on me. hmm.. queer but i like it (: it's like real-life-energy-booster :D
now that the mist had bunked, the flawless skies seem to have drawn very much closer, i realised, it was you who brushed off the mist. and that the one whom i thought did was in fact the one who initially caused confusion.
i had consciously waited for your presence for two days just to tell you this new perception which i saw and had caught on. and i guess i should wait some more :D after all, the patience discovered in creeping time, is the intentionally occulted way to brighten more sunken thoughts and reap more positivity in life. and especially for someone like me.
i might judge too much following my heart's desires, but still, there are reality checks which i could never elude. life is an everyday drama, but mental conquerance only come in significant instances.
when you fight life, life always wins.
i believe in faith; i trust destiny :D
i believe in faith; i trust destiny :D
"soaring, tumbling, freewheeling, through an endless diamond sky"
