Sometimes, some feelings that you have once felt in the past don't just die off. They don't just fade off like worn clothes. The magnitude of the emotions that I am feeling now actually scares me, after reviving some of these close memories that are actually so far off.
Somehow, I feel that there was a wall, but just a thin one. Maybe I just haven't gotten use to it yet. Or maybe, I'm just seeking attention that I'm feeling this way.. I confuse myself with my own emotions.. But I must say that I hate bringing upon emotions on myself and later struggle to get them off me.
Hey, I'm glad you're all well, and that you're still the same as you were. I wish I never left, and I wish I had been there when you might have needed me. Although I may not play such a big role anymore like I use to four years ago, I still hope to be by your side to be there for you at times of low.
Anyway, it was a brilliant day today! Had a simple but awesome lunch session and a relaxing and calming night. Sometimes, I love these kind of space that I create for myself.
I am one who needs lots of space on my own before I suffocate in the presence of all others.
I think it's an odd personality, but hello there introvert :)
