Truth is, reality isn't a cheesy romance film.
I've never wanted to admit how much of a hopeless romantic I am, neither have I ever acknowledged that I am quite possibly the cheesiest person ever. But lately I have come to realise that love very naturally dominates my life in the most irrational way. When I fall in love, it becomes everything - my entire life goes to trash and love becomes the only thing that keeps me whole, keeps me grounded and keeps me sane.
Whether that happens as intensely to everyone else or not, I don't know.
But when love runs out of rhyme or if something goes wrong, I always hit rock bottom because my life revolved around it. I tried to change that rhythm every time I fall in love with someone. I tried not getting too attached because I know if and when it ends, I will be wrecked. But each time I do that, I ask myself what is love when you can't love someone with everything you've got. So again I jump headfirst off that cliff and when I crash into the water, I literally crash and burn.
As much of that kind of person I am, I rarely admit it. I downplay it like a relationship isn't my everything and love is only a part of life, maybe because I always assume that it seems sad and pathetic to imply that a person, a relationship or a thing can become your whole life.
And recently I found out that being a Libra, we're ruled by Venus, the planet of love and we're in the seventh house, the House of Partnership. I'm not making excuses for the person I am but I am beginning to understand why I am the person I am; which sort of helped me to acknowledge the fact that I shouldn't be afraid to be who I am.
It is okay to make love priority.
