a familiar warble; some tuneful sound,
the sky had since toppled over the ground,
somehow, i dont see that light i found.
i should be happy but i dont feel so,
it was the blaze that had mutated to a glow,
so much for time creeping in slow,
it's one birthday that i'd rather not told.
giving more reasons to elude that fact,
those words that induced such an impact,
i can no longer force a smile out of this act,
it's distressing; it's totally wrecked.
and for a tear to wipe it clear,
the torments of hope had once appeared,
i cant judge if they're entirely sincere,
for it's insincerity that i largely fear.
it's the wall between us that you had clashed,
but it's something i'd never slashed,
i might have overreacted in a way,
but who wouldnt, it's actually a big day..
im speechless, because simply, im so lost for words. and for once in life, it had dragged on for days. being speechless isnt nice, you dont know what to feel, you dont know what to say. and every other obligations you're inclined to, seem to fade off as you stare in the air, wondering what's up..
i dont like feeling this way.. and especially, when my birthday's tomorrow. is it just me, or is it just her, or is it because of everything else, that im so empty at the thought of celebrating tomorrow..
maybe i should just shut up and move on..
but i know i just cant..
"i still feel the sting of my tears; someone wake me, i cant seem to break free"
