i fear time.. it brings facts that i wish i could lam out of eternally. sometimes, it might feel good to have a romeo by your side (even if you're certain that he's not your romeo). but at the other times, romeo freak you out, for trying to be romeo.and i know it, you're just not him.
i know you tried, but again, a little give and take is not fate.
anyway,
i was typing something relatively sentimental here as yesterday's post. something about how people change and so what if we'd spend years together. we're always happy as the closest of friends and lamest of people. 'so what' has become a big word, too big that my mind refuses to take it into interpretations, because you'd decided to change..
i hope it's just me being over-sensitive as usual, but i guess it's not when the world feels it too..
i cant help but to notice the wall between us. it's emerging as a whole barrier in speech and resistance in action. i dont even think i dare to look at you in the eye.
im afraid i dont see the identical sincerity. im afraid of the cold feeling at your presence. im just afraid of you leaving us.
i'd rather the holidays would drag on..
and for another..
this was the reason why yesterday's post didnt appear in my blog and will only be posted as i hit the publish post button. im utterly disappointed, was and still rather am. my mum thinks im over-reacting, my mum thinks im ultra sensitive, but i think im just acting like how a normal kid would.supposedly, *insert your ideal idol* was going to celebrate your happy fifteenth birthday with you, and ffk-ed 3 days before the day. how would you feel?
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that's how i felt...
even till now.. there's something there that would still make me wanna cry..
i cant get over it.
"count to ten, take it in, this is life before you know who you're supposed to be"
