i dont feel as contented as i was yesterday, if taken comparisons to today. well, i shouldnt, by right, since today is just another pointless school day. nothing big, nothing extraordinary, nothing eventful.. just a thursday.
i wish i could feel as hyp-ed as i was yesterday, but somehow, i guess i'd reached level infinite in the height of yesterday's energy. i was so filled, but now, im just void.
even the very first of the morning killed the usual excitement of the day. time is such a painful zapper. one strike and im down. im weak, i know. but conclusionally, i reached school at 7.07 am. i was considerably late, because usually, i come early to carry bags. yes, some bags :)
and it killed the beginning of the day..
my day got further murdered in a horrible way, somehow, when the juniors decided to rush into class before the bell actually rang. and i just loathe them for that D: no way of expressing my rage literally, and in a certain way, it's like i was late. but it's not me! U.G.H! D:
somehow, we were talking about how people change today. i wouldnt call it gossiping actually, it wasnt entirely mean and bad like how gossips are known to be. i think this sorta 'murdered' my day too.
i mean, it's not thaaaaat bad to discuss about that matter but, it makes me emo. and that just tugged my mood to aught. i dont like seeing people change, for when everytime someone does, the distance lengthens from near to far. and i dont like figuring out why they change. it just sets in..
it's not utterly a harmful day (yes, harmful because some days are sometimes harmful) but it just got me down la kay.
"im not a princess, this aint a fairytale; im not the one you sweep off her feet, lead her up the stairwell"
