i feel dense to allow that song to run over and over again on my playlist, but without it, i feel stark. the truth is, i AM stark at this point. just somewhere on a broken path, lost, emotionless. or rather, emotionally ceased to obdurateness. whatever.
the more it wheels around my mind, the deeper the hole sinks.
i believe now, the superiority of dreams. a subconscious reality which holds the subconsciousness of what reality is. that's just it, meaningless, just DE-FINE my previous statement!? and i'd never actually trust that state of unaware sensibility sort of rubbish..
now, i ACTUALLY do.
as much as reality denies the truth that im fine even if a part of everyday is gone. i seem like i can, it's all a flawless facade, but just WHO am i even trying to cheat. my dreams proves it all.
i dont know what i should do. and ALL i can do is to drown myself in endless school obligatories. even if im DEAD fed up.
why do i wake up just to wait for the day to end?
"as the world keeps spinning round, you hold me right here right now.."
