I'm probably thinking too much.
And now I feel bad that I showed her my last post because now she'd feel 10 times worse telling me about it because you would think that it's now bothering me like how it shouldn't. Oh Lord, please save me.
I probably made a wrong move. But all I wanted to do is to tell her that no matter how much she is going through, I will be there for her, though being there for her doesn't make much of a difference. At this point, I'm lost. I'm lost for words, thoughts and every other emotion. All I can do is to drown myself with school.
As much as I don't believe or don't want to believe the seriousness of it, a small part of me tells me that it's for real this time.
That 4 lines are still pounding in my head, echoing at the edge of it.
I wish it could just fall out like that.
I'm sorry if I made you feel bad;
I just wanted to let you know that you're not as small as you think I see you as.
