today marks the last day of exams, the revelry of the end of a torturous process but the commencement of a novelty in my pathetic, profound manner of sketching the motion of life.
my pride still stood today, on a really wobbly, lopsided ground where it could barely stand still. it's slipping off the edge, falling way down low, deep into the chasm of pitiable issues. vague streaks of hope tells me i'm thinking too much based on one screwed up matter. but the rest of the dimness encircling me tells me i'm doomed.
i havent felt so bothered ever before, not even when i was passing by that certain motion of emo last year. i only felt hopeless then, now, i'm certain that it isnt similar to that at all. i'd ascertain the fact that i'm hiding from the excruciating truth, drowning myself with the insanity of laughters and never ending tasks to keep myself from thinking too much.
it isnt normal, this portion of life, i'm going through right this instant.
i'm just exceedingly worried over things, just because one particular matter is summing up to an unexpected inference.
that's one matter.. the next, another condition disturbing me, but not my mind now.. it's my sight.
i had quoted this particular sight pollution as "a certain piece of obstructive, invincible, permanent brick wall, aired with annoyance and disgust. yes, a certain structure which i believe, respires?! perhaps.." in my previous blog post.
and i trust my senses to be precisely right about this pollution of sight.
ahh.. why bother wasting my energy and time on blogging about a dead piece of disgusting looking structure which, i judge, is too pathetic to be seen on my blog. but i'll leave it there, you readers can enjoy my rage on it.
but overall, one side of my mind has been clogged up. by some really unescessary condition.
stop thinking, SM
