i should be more hyp-ed than i currently am,
i should be more rejuvenated too.
but somehow, im still sapped.
okay. it's the end of the holidays, once and for all. the last enjoyment period of the year, before the deathly PMR. the last day of what i suppose life(?). and the rest, shall sight work and more of them.
if the right mood strikes the next time i click on the new post clickie, i might elaborate on the details of my short trip. but one word to conclude, fresh =)
excuse the usage of improper english structures or any regular grammatical errors, not to mention the manipulation of over-trivial vocabulary and articulations. the brain machinery needs some lubricant.
i shall polish it when i fix my mood (:
i often feel disappointed when someone i highly adulate ignores me. and the trust is, it repeats. i always feel that way. but this time, i dont feel the disappointment; in fact, i felt the rage. the burning rage in me.
nevertheless, the sense of admiration is invincible. i am, for once, not going to be bothered twice for this sort of nonsense, and i am not mouthing the first word again. it doesnt have to be me regularly. i am not in desperation..
it's dangerous. it's worse than playing with fire. one spark and it burns, decomposing every fragment of my smile to burning ashes of fury. i dont verbally barb, neither do i shoot stares. i hide them internally, at the extend of well-understood.
i shouldnt be getting mad at all, it's wrong rationally. but look who is, morally?! i'm not to be blamed.
time flew.. less than half of the day left for the last bits of freedom (:
and then, we hit school..
