i dont feel my heart beats anymore, for lit night stole my heart away :D
riiight.. maybe i'd overdone that. but still.. it was one awesome night.
though that, thank goodness i wasnt insane enough to go for the matinee as well. or i'd fall off my chair last night. not trying to insult the show, just whacking it on my literary senses.
the seats arranged were supposedly of the first row, which marooned me in a pretty awkward situation being stuck between two. and lucky enough, i'd found someone to pull me out of that situation. phew!
the plan wasnt imprinted in my mind when i'd first went over. all i could manage to sketch was to start a little chat until the show begins. but who knew what the future sees and bam! just as i hopped back, the lights dimmed.
and there i sat for the rest of the night..
it feels so disencumbered to have opened up that bolted doorway in my mind, to, at last, reveal that dark secret which i'd been longing to blabber out. and i finally did. and therefore, she finally knew, how much that decision had stabbed me.
it feels so contenting to have caught that mental sadist to see me with someone. im beginning to love that jealoused curiousity in her eyes whenever she sees us. it's one satisfying glare, though beyond brings cues of me rhythmically transforming into a mental sadist myself..
also,
it feels fantastically good to have assuaged the urge of those long lost, constant chats. it feels rejuvenated, despite the seating stiffness and almost breakdown, it really is rejuvenating! and i meant it literally, no esoterica.
it isnt an everyday routine to have such bonding moments, which signifies my right choice. odd that i'd used 'bonding', even i think it is. but im just typing whatever my mind's commanding me to. right now, it says, leave it as 'bonding' and shut up. so okay!
though it was also awkward there, where teachers were seated and in midst of them, a random student.. i just didnt say it. but oh well, at least im more willing to be sesat there than in front (:
and so, someone made my night!
who knows why?
but she really did..
smile maker to the smile maker (sm) :D
hence, concluding the night and this post, lit night was, not only worth the watch, but also worth being there, simply to sate and state my emotions, pierce someone's mind and walk away with it (:
and im much convinced now that im a mental sadist too.. :0
