Saturday, July 4, 2009

simply grateful for...

sometimes, i might have been too deep that i'd slurred over the most nominal events. sometimes, i might be too simple to have overlooked the most animated commotions. as simple as that, im an ignorant kid.

and i've got to change..


the fact that PMR is in approximately 100 days, or less, had been killing me silently on the rear of SM's shell. it's strange that im feeling so excessively dithery over academical achievements. i've been running kiasu these days. excuse the typical malaysian attitude..

initially, the plan was to end the revelry of freedom when the month of june begins. but the plan had seem to only work after a month, and even that, is not drawing up a success. ahh.. the sight of books makes me sick. and i've got to put up with them for years to come.




forget about the anxiety talk..
let's skip a step to being grateful. random, but morally right.
i likey :)

this was drilled into my mind by a certain educator. given a list of top 5's, what are u grateful for? the question wasnt meant for me plainly, but it'd strung me to my thoughts again.. and that, i'd came up with a list..



1. im grateful for my distinct set of emotions - allowing me to feel and express in the name of depths and esotericality. though it made me an odd kid altogether, i love the way i feel the most negligible matter..

2. im grateful for having sufficient intelligence stored in my occupied mind - to satisfy my unceasable egoism in just everything and anything i poke my nose into.

3. im grateful for possessing quaint writing abilities - encouraging cryptic writing and articulations, drafting every unverballed view in a profound manner, expressing disturbing thoughts and yet, not revealing it to the world.

4. im grateful for the touch of love felt - though it wasnt real, it was just enough to suffice the invisible pain, clashing off the rusty, callous SM.

and the last one,

5. im grateful for the existance of a certain individual - who had just stumbled into my life, completely inadvertently. and changing it from the rarest to the plainest of all elements.. also, completely unintentionally, showing me the actual world reality is destined.

it is of whoever you assume would fit into this simple description, i shall remain silent.


there's a laugh in my eye,
there's in waltz in my walk,
it's been such a long time,
since there was hope in my talk..
 

Blog Template by BloggerCandy.com