the answer might count weightier in siding no; or other wise, a possibly yes, to surmount my tormented thoughts. and before any wronger thoughts evoked, my current marriage target is "bliss"..
in display of plain observations, im frequently disturbed by this distinct set of emotions im born with. and hence, the appearance of this blog, might lead up to serious mental let-outs. i dont mind, just as long as im happy.
but im nothing close to that now :/
im glad now that i did not attend school yesterday, or my mind would have exploded in rage and anger. though the workshop wasnt utterly pleasant, it would at least slur over a day of fury.
i need more blissful days to fulfill the slot for happiness life has to offer.
or perhaps mine doesnt?
most aptly..
my point is..
im deceived, so is she. and so is everyone else. the mastermind beyond this ingenious plan, happens to be an impersonation of "a sunrise hero; a sunset crook". how skillfully done..
i dont blame her. i dont blame anyone. in fact, im not suggesting any assumably drawn up inference on this matter. i just felt that we're deprived from justice, things are awfully lopsided. and so, im not taking sides. im aware of my stands.
i know my limits. and they arent running high these days. one trivial trigger, and i go boom! i'd always learned to control myself. i had always chose to pretend to be find, minding my own business. but i wish i could reserve the calmness i'd once witheld..
i cant do this any longer.
my foolish actions of overheating rage would please her more in everyway. such a mental sadist. referring to whom? that's for you to judge, for me to ponder over..
life is always a see-saw, one goes up and the other heads down.
and as much as that philosophy holds, im always the lighter one..
i shall soar every moment you stumble :p and sue me..
