The Only One In The World

Life has be jinxed back to the usual chills.

I hate seeing the glaring swing of emotions in the text messages you text me. It may be obscure to others but to me, I read you really well already. Experience doesn't give you any more than routines do.

Why do you always have to lead the game? Why do you always have to be in control of me? Can't I ever make you feel miserable like how you always make me feel? Not that I ever can bear that thought.

Sometimes I wish you could taste your own medicine. How you get my hopes all jumping high up when you talk to me like how you did when I first came to know you. And how you crash them all when your replies transform into cold silence.

Oh well,

Things rotates. Someday, you will be back to making me feel like I deserve it, before bursting my trippy bubbles again.

She said..

I know I haven't been blogging for a while. Sorry!

Well, I'm currently trying out the Maxis Broadband, which, isn't exactly working well. I can't be blaming anyone because well, hehh, I'm on the thirdteenth floor. What sort of signal do I expect? Pfft.

Hmm, this year has been tough. With everyone having wrong perceptions about everything else. Yeah, all the right people, for all the wrong perceptions. That's beyond sad.

I feel that I'm losing it all. Everything.

Not reality-ly but in a way that no one else could perceive except for the one who's going through it. And obviously enough, that's me. She was right when she said 'go for it'.

Because yeah,

I'm about to begin to strive all I have to 'go. for. it.'

Ain't No Judge

I promised Sue Lynn that I'd blog about the topic that we mutually had an idea on today, and tag her in it on Facebook. But I had to change my mind and keep that for tomorrow, perhaps.

I think I've just set my mind to write a sequel of "Men from Mars; Women from Venus", just that, I'd call it, "Women from Earth, Men from Pluto". Yes because, (I am not a sexist) but women is normal and men, generally isn't much as compared. I am not picking on a gender, I am just saying this based on certain male characters that bring disgrace to the entire men community.

And to all my male readers, please don't feel offended. Instead, be happy that you are normal! And laugh with me together at the rare ones of your community.

I'm not saying that I've actually met one in life. And I'm not even saying that I'm even right about this whole thing that I'm blogging. I'm no one to judge, but I am me, and I dare blog my thoughts.

Reading too much isn't much of a good thing sometimes, it makes you angry.

And the Form 5 syllabus provokes much anger just as well.

Loves;

Always haunted.

You painted me a blue sky but you tore it down again.

Just like you did every other time.

It didn't really bother me today. I wasn't feeling much at all, probably because my mood was swinging in my head like how pendulums swing in Physics. I was perfectly fine.

I needed help, I typed a friends name in my 'send' bar and your name appeared. And it just has to remind me that I wasn't talking to you anymore. Just like how the other day, when I was casually talking to someone and she had to mention how easy it was when you were here. How coincidental is that?

If you were here, I might even thought that you arranged it yourself. But I know it can't be. God did maybe? But I believe in Him.

I wish this would end.

With either you ignoring me for the rest of your life.

Or at least, making an effort to make things work.

Stop Being Like That

I think we ought to have the rights to decide who we want to be, and not just accept everything as it goes.

In an example, if you are an antisocial, and if you think you are an antisocial, then you may be an antisocial. But nothing is perpetual. If you think you are antisocial, you may not necessarily be one. Life is in your hands, change it.

No use telling everyone you are an antisocial and that is why you listen to really emo songs and that you grew up with them. No. Life is not gamed that way. You don’t compromise to thinking you’re antisocial and adapt to it. You turn it around, mate!

What I’m trying to say is. Stop giving yourself reasons to being what you think you are and never try to compromise. Life is not a game of tolerance; life is a legend that you only get to live once. Make it worthwhile.

And so I’m building my stand.

Freaky Apples.

How do apples taste like?

I don't wanna try these.. at all.

I had the best interview in two years, being in Features. Oh now I know why I love life and why everyone else wanted to be a part of us :D Oooh, dear Featurettes, this is the year!

I'M SO HAPPY I JUST FOUND A SOLUTION TO ALL MY PROBLEMS. (Y) Win.

Guess this is the last post before school hits. I mean, well, you know, every time school takes over life, I lose it; time, life and all. And today is Sunday. The last bits of the sweet, sweet weekend..

Enjoy the last bits, peeps! <3

Road Heroes

I really can't wait till I can actually lay my hands on the steering wheel. I NEED TO DRIVE, like now. But no, apparently, I'm still underage. Oh Lord, I have another say 6 months till I'm 'eligible'. But then, I would be frantically twisting my wires to prepare for SPM, and I wouldn't wanna take car-accident-risks. (although I'd have insurance :p).

Oh well, I do salute drivers who honk. I mean, what's the rush?
Honking is like saying 'shhhhh' when someone needs to go to the loo.
But doing that, takes a whole lot of courage, I'd say.

When I can actually call myself a driver, I don't think I'm much of a honker. I like peace :) And I wouldn't like to 'catch attention' with my honk.

And I'd like to give a shoutout to WML 2280.
Dear WML 2280, you have no idea how much I actually admire your courage to honk when the space there was sufficient for a stampede of elephants :O Oh believe me, I really do. It must have taken a lot for you to decide to make yourself such a hero. <3

*Italics for an extra tone in voice (to show my sincerity) :)

Change of Looks

I guess it's time to put on some new clothing for this blog. Probably a change of mood will help brighten things up a little :)

ICC's tomorrow. An event that most (actually, really, A LOT of) people pay extra attention to and take it as if it's the biggest thing that's ever happened in the century. But although, yes, it's good and entertaining and all that. Wild Child FTW peeps ;)

As much as the new skin is reviving your senses, i hope it makes you as happy as I am.

Have a good weekend!

<3